Nothing but respect for the men and women of the armed services

  When I moved up here to Bentonville, my gpa took a dive.  Not that it was awesome before but I was vastly improving.  I had a dream.  It was the fly planes in the airforce.  Once I moved up here, my school counselors told me I had no chance to compete for the airforce academy because I did not and will not ever have a 4.0 gpa.  They were not even going to help me.
  I was crushed for the longest god damn time and failed so see or grasp any other opportunities to join any other armed forces.  I could have done anything but I was blinded by my failure.  All my big talk about joining up and dying for my country and then I fail.  And then when I finally get inspired to possibly look at other opportunities thats when I got sick.
 I dont know just something that's been bothering me for a while.  Just sometimes it resurfaces and bites me in the ass when I think about it.
Although, if I had joined up I may never have met Emili and have this wonderful kid.
Hopefully putting this up and having people make fun of me or whatever can finally help me get over this shit.